Dear blog,

There's some stuffs deep inside me that i must pour out to you.
You just seems to understand best every time i have troubles.

Yes it's about badminton once again.
Guess for the past 2 years, i had been troubling a lot for the sake of competitions.
Yeah, so this year my troubles period's here once again.
Inevitably, these problems arises as as the competition's stepping nearer and nearer...

It's my last year in swiss, the very last competition as a swiss flamer...
I really treasure it a lot, i really want to fight and win it..
I worked hard to be inside the school team.
Yeah my hard work paid off and i'm in the main team.

Lynette's my regular partner from then on.
I couldn't help but feel stressed up since she's much of a better player than me, both skills and clerverness.
People say we're a pair of strong doubles, and we were, at first.
They showered praises at us...

But there's just this feeling that's lingering inside me.
I'm not a good player...
I'm not fit enough to play for the school...
I'm just dragging the whole game down instead of helping to score for it...
I'm just an extra player in the double's game.
I'm not needed for the game at all.
Most importantly, i'm not a good partner.

I know it clearly that i shouldn't be feeling so down and so pessimistic when competition's coming.
But what can i do????????
So what if i tell myself that i'm a good player?
It's obvious that i'm just trying to cheer myself up, but i know that the fact still, is...
i just suck.

My confidence is leaking, draining, gushing away like nobody's business.
So much more things i have to say but i couldn't...
Please, someone, especially you, please..
insert confidence into me....
don't leave me alone..
It won't do us any good :'(

Here i end my blog post,
Hoping that no one will come across this post anytime soon, as usual.
Thanksz blogzie.